Reflections of a Single Mother
The message reads: “I just enrolled in the R2I2 Charter School Program for next year. They have the mechanical engineering classes I need for college and I needed to register by January 30th. I hope you don’t mind.” No thoughts [replace "thoughts" with expletive of choice...] given as to how she is going to get to the R2I2 program which is outside of her school district and she has no car.
Now my first instinct was to fly off the handle and tell her butt, no you are not. I was about to let her have it for trying to add more to my already hectic schedule of working a full time job, teaching at night to make sure she has everything she needs, shuttle her around to basketball practice, games and other school events… But then it really hit me how I was totally missing the bigger picture. I was totally floored for a minute, as I realized, my baby just made a life altering decision on her own that may affect her future drastically… My 16 year old is growing up so fast. She not only is making her own decisions, she is making great decisions for herself. Which leads me to another awakening. I have been a single mother of two daughters for a long time and have become so accustomed to ripping and literally running myself ragged, that it just hit me in this very instant that in less than 2 years, I am going to be an empty nester. I am not sure how to feel about this.
So now, I find myself in front of my computer with tears in my eyes. Tears of joy, not sure. Tears of sadness, also not sure - just feeling some kind of way. It is one of those moments that I am truly grateful that I work from home, because I absolutely hate to see people cry at work. Not that I am heartless or cold, I just don’t know what to do for them. Usually my queue to exit stage left as quickly as possible…